Hmmm okay so today I asked Twinie to give me 10 reasons why I shouldn't delete Ray 's no. She just went on and on about we falling apart. Fact is we have fallen apart. No; how do you want me to feel if in a day right in my face . I texted this nigga hours back no response but you can see that they have been chatting since since and are still kraa chatting. No is it fair? Ok so what relevance is his no. to my phone. If all it does is make me sad. Like really? And his no. Is first on the list. Hmmm after she shows me his injury..infact he knows why he made her promise not to tell me because he knows what he's doing...me; I don't care now. Honestly I've cried enough....lost concentration in class enough...I'm just plain tired ooo... How?! I'm someone's daughter too. I'm trying so hard to take the blame and leave him clean but it's killing me. Why did I have to love him? Why those serious mood swings...why that decision. Just because I wanted to be more of a friend. Just because we used to talk about lots of things but now he's gotten a new bestie. I wasn't a bestie but at least he made me part of his world. All those hallway rap battles...shopping...bball games..skating...thinking about it all hurts a lot. If we weren't so attached I would have been so fine. This one that we never kissed or had sex kraa see how it hurts....Help me Lord please I want to move on. Hmmm............
Signed out,
Kristee.....
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